August 17, 2016

My Presence Is a Gift

In week four of Self-Mastery class I wrote this thought paper: 

A few years back my sister called me, very distraught, and I talked to her for over an hour. Her boyfriend, the father of her son, had moved out again after a few months of having moved back in, and the disappointment of having to raise her son on her own again was too much for her. As she cried and cried, I comforted her as best I could. I told my therapist later how badly I felt that I didn’t have any money to give her. I was in Los Angeles while she was on the east coast, and I felt terrible that there wasn’t anything concrete and substantial I could do to help. My therapist suggested that maybe she didn’t want money or other help from me - maybe she just wanted someone to listen.

August 12, 2016

Restoring Myself to Wholeness

My assignment during week two of Self-Mastery class involved a spiritual mind treatment for the issue that came up for me while we were doing some heart work (our more uplifting term for 'homework') on Wholeness. I had not been taking very good care of myself. Time to love myself more. 

If this treatment resonates with you, feel free to adapt it for yourself. 

August 4, 2016

Embracing My Oneness with Spirit

The next class I took after Foundations was Self-Mastery. Many of the assignments involved writing spiritual mind treatments, prayers that call positive experiences into being by affirming that God qualities which appear to be lacking really are already present. The prayer plants a seed in Universal Mind - if it is given the sunlight and water of our full attention and trust, it must grow into a beautiful demonstration!

I thought I would post the treatments here to show my progression throughout the course. Feel free to use them yourself if the condition fits!

July 27, 2016

The Journey

Wow! It’s been over four years since I added to this blog. For the last three years, I’ve been deepening into spiritual studies at the Center for Joyful Living in Wilmington, DE. The last two of those years were specialized studies to become a Religious Science of Mind Practitioner. I passed a grueling written exam and am now in the internship phase of my studies, using affirmative prayer in coaching sessions with clients. I’ve come a long way since avoiding eye contact while saying affirmations at Agape! I understand much more about how the Universe works, how my thoughts create my reality. Applying that knowledge, consistently, in a way that makes a substantive difference in my life has been more challenging, but I’ve made definite progress.

March 22, 2012

Video Kismet in Philly

“This is my wife, Lyubov.” I looked up at the round-cheeked woman with big brown saucer eyes and shook her hand.
Russkaya, shto li?
Da, russkaya.”
She switched back into English and I don’t think she even noticed we had exchanged that little bit in Russian. Her husband explained that we were discussing the possibility of working together on some video projects. With his new camera and various equipment, he felt comfortable shooting just about anything. What he didn’t know was how to organize the pieces – what questions to ask, what shots to get, how to edit it all together. I knew how to direct and produce, but I wasn’t too skilled on the technical side of things. We could be a match! 

September 16, 2011

Falling Into Love, Gradually

September. My summer love project is officially over, and I haven’t had any dramatic breakthroughs. I was getting a little discouraged, but I remembered something that Reverend Michael said once in a sermon, that the changes sometimes come gradually, unnoticed until we look back and compare who we were then with who we are now. I decided to continue the project into September, October, November – to fall into love! I mean, if you think about it, love works in any season.

My first experience at Agape International Spiritual Center last January was stressful, particularly doing the affirmations. We had to lock eyes with another parishioner and repeat after Reverend Michael, something like “I see you. I see who you really are. You have potential. I know because I have it too. I see myself in you...” Saying the affirmation wasn’t hard in and of itself; it was the eye contact that killed me.

August 19, 2011

Propeller Miracles

Day 18 of my Summer Love Project. As usual, ideas and insights are coming faster than I can write about them, and as I was away in Florida for almost two weeks with intermittent Internet access, I have some catching up to do here! I am still working on being present, on being love – doesn’t happen all of the time, probably not even the majority of the time, but I do a little every day when I think of it, and I have noticed some subtle changes. Nothing dramatic or earth-shattering, just a little more inner peace every day, an inner glow and happiness more often than before, and a higher tolerance for noise and dysfunction that used to upset me horribly. I’ll take it.

Before I left for Florida, I went over to my brother’s house to do laundry. The dryer at my parents’ house was broken, and there wasn’t time to air dry everything before my trip. My brother and his wife came home with their two little boys before I finished, and the four-year-old, Lukas, wanted to stay and play with me rather than go to the gym with them. I was tired and had a lot to do at home, but I decided to stay and spend time with him. With his Lincoln Logs we built something that vaguely resembled a barn; he put in his toy cow and then went to get some ‘hay’ for him from behind the television, and I told him we needed to leave the cow so he could eat and take a nap.